Mid January....2010...off to a rough start

i think im getting sick and ill.....most likely just overexhaustion and fatigue.
its only been 1 full week at my new job, but realizing that being in Japan just makes everything very unhealthy wheather if i try my hardest or try to cuz myself some slack. i guess the fact that im constantly nervous even just answeing the phone at work, or even just responding to my coworkers in Japanese.

its like if you were sent to like Eygipt or France or somewhere you had no clue what their language was. but just because you look a slight like their race or something and know "hello" or casual conversation, people expect you to be fluent and their naitonality. its like that for me. no one ever will know just by looking at me that im not "really" japanese....


just my usual pondering but im trying to keep a positive outlook...
..........

=/