already February....man.

guess what, its february, and we should be seeing some sights of spring since it was ground hogs day back in the US but here.....in japan....it snowed...!!!!! its been freezing cold with the wind just blasting in my face and literally freezing my face.
yesterday morning on my commute to work, i was able to see my own breath INSIDE the train.

but things been busy and still tough....i have lost some weight already due to not being able to sleep or rest at all cuz my mind is going NUTS, my body is just burnt out from the emotional stress, which then leads me to not being hungry or having any apetite. but i guess i am back to my "goal weight" from some weight i have gained being back in the states with engulfing all my US treats, so on that aspect i just wanna try and keep it but go jogging and get my muscle back.

the only thing that is making my day is maybe when i get to walk about an hour or so in the city finding a nice little cafe with good quality coffee.

im trying my best to make each day count a bit more. mind as well try to explore more of japan while i am here. just getting some stuff off my list crossed out. instead of just staying in on the weekend, (at least one of the days) i go and find a new place to explore. i need a day to stay home and do stuff around the house tho. and i just found out that one of my old co-workers is going thru chemo - shes at stage 4 lung cancer, never been a smoker - and was told by the doctor how much more time shes got left to live. this news just shoked me and realized that you NEVER know what can happen. just even the next day. something can happen to me, even. so i took into consideration that now that i am in japan, this might be the time i am able to spend time with my parents (whenever our schedules are free). because all those years i was in CA they were here, even if we wanted to hang out and spend some bonding time so-to-speak we couldnt. so now maybe they can show me what Japan is all about since they are more comfortable here - its their home country. and its prolly the only time NOW because my dad is all retired and have all the free time he wants. i dont wanna regret not having the chance to get to know my parents when i was given the chance to. ill try and see more of my brothers also if they let me go visit them (haa). i should truly be more grateful about my health , how i was born healthy, i was raised well by my great parents (we do have our rough times), and they let me live the life that made me who i am today. ive always been grateful and blessed but i want to express it more in action. i know i should treat myself a little better first, too. being healthy emotionally can help me physically. mind and body.

okay that was just my ponder - a new insight on life - which i had when the new years came around.


but its kinda bad that its only been a month since i started at my new job and i am ALREADY crying out for help and figuring out my way to relieve some stress and chaos.


Yay for Becky and Marc on their first new home! aww, their love nest <3